Cassidy

How did we get to where we are

How does that turn into this

One minute, we were pulling the rope in the same direction

Leading with affection

Then we ended up indifferent 

But why did it have to be different

You told me I would hurt for a while

But the hurt didn’t come for a mile

Nothing

I felt nothing

Until I thought it all

Until I fell all at once

Crumbling into pieces

Lying on the floor in a pool of tears

Drowning in your words

Drowning in the hurt

It’s not fair

My words were the weapon

But you pulled the trigger

Pushing my limits

Pushing me till I broke

I couldn’t take it

I couldn’t swallow your words

The three words you told me

But only when you were hurting

Holding liquid courage

Blaming me for the damage 

But you didn’t see my hurt

OR hear My words

So why did you do it?

My friends warned me 

My kindness and compassion blinded me 

I was naive 

I was younger

Inexperienced 

Innocent

But now I am tainted by you

Those two words you told me

When you were drunk 

That’s when it always comes out

Holding on to me with affection 

And loving eyes

Luscious lips

Which are shooting out bullets

That stabbed me in the heart

2 words I have never heard you say before 

And here I am again

On the floor 

In a pool of my own fears

Questioning how I got here

Questioning why you get to be happy

You didn’t have to cut me off

But you cut me deep

I hate you

And you hate me

What started with a kiss

Ended in tragedy

gravity and mortality

Now replaced with Cassidy