Running Water

Heavy eyes

Puffy face

Running water

Down my face

I sit and I stare

I cry and wait there

Running water down my body

Running water down my face

Running thoughts that won’t stop

Destructing 

Erupting

Everyday

I sit in the shower

Holding tight 

And embraced

Wishing the water could run down my spine 

Wishing the bones would stick out of place

I have all these thoughts

I can’t control

And all I can do is sit in place

A pit in my stomach

A numbness in my brain 

As I  watch the water drip down my face

They are thoughts I can’t control 

Thoughts I can’t explain

Coming out of nowhere 

Like a car in your blind spot

Unexpected 

Unexplained 

They never stop

No warning sign 

Switching off and on

The dosage goes up

And little by little they fade away

But they never end 

The water still drips down my face