New Beginnings

New beginnings 

Another year has passed

I have waited for this day for the past 4 years, and it’s finally here

I have counted down the hours

Waited for the minutes

I have wished for this day

Thinking if I could only get to this point

Then everything would go my way

All my problems and worries would magically disappear 

Like a perfect life was waiting for me

But now this day is here

And that day has passed

And I am still here

Stuck with the same worries

And the same problems

And the same shitty self-image

Nothing changed

We wish for things to happen

We hype up the moment as if it will be the turning point of our lives

As if it will solve all of our issues

But it doesn’t

I am waiting in the moment for something to switch in my brain

To feel different

But I don’t

I am stuck waiting there

But nothing happens

It’s a new beginning 

But I am stuck in the last chapter

Just waiting for someone to turn the page