Scared to Run

My mind goes around and around

My lips say, “Choose a new type of fun.”

chasing those who run

because of your type of fun

which is holding a loaded gun

“Hurt people hurt people,

It’s all said and done.”

You start breathing harder and harder

Like labor in your lungs

I hang from the ledge

You pushed me off

I reach for your arm

Hoping you will rescue me

hoping you see what you’ve done

You say that I’m fine

I fall to my death 

lying there stuck in time

stuck in a moment 

where you said all you had for me was love

My head is saying run

bButmy heart is saying she didn’t mean to do what she has doneThiss can’t be happening 

I wish I had jumped

and saved myself all those months

pouring my energy into a girl with a gun

loaded

with the intent to fire

i’m burning 

She is killing me

But I stay 

because i’m scared to run