When We Were Young

When we’re young

We think about who we will be when we grow up

When I was younger, they asked everyone 

who we wanted to be the following year

Or when we were older

The career would always change

But one thing stayed the same

There was one constant answer 

Skinny

I wanted to be skinny

I tried to “lose weight”

I wanted to be desired

I was in 4th grade..

How sad is that?

My only goal in life was to be skinny.

When I was younger 

I was taught that if you were “bigger”

Then that was bad

You did something wrong

You failed. 

Start again

Then I lost the weight

But now I’m too skinny

“Boys want a little meat on the bones.”

Now I’m sad

Pick a side

Don’t change the finish line

Which one is it